not understanding

Occasionally you must resign to the fact of not understanding. The goal is understanding, but not understanding is often a step in the process of understanding. You must embrace time. You must embrace delay. You must live in  incomprehension, knowing that the empty is meaningful.

Not understanding is a void. Things happen that demand understanding and not understanding is as bad as trauma, because not understanding is unpacked trauma. Not understanding is sitting in the quiet still eye of the hurricane. The sky is blue and all moisture is sucked out of the air. Hurricane all around you. Destruction.

The void is empty of words and sentences and sometimes even feelings except despair.

This is what you must wait out.