1. Every time I see any info at all about the Coronavirus I have a feeling of great longing. I know it’s selfish. I know many will suffer. But I long to catch it and die.
2. There are so many ways to die and many, many ways to keep living.
3. Hope: Every Black artist who did art in America during legal segregation. Everyone who does art at all while part of a group that is targeted by hate. (Jackie McLean was the son of a mixed Black-White couple, I think; I like the title of this album). (Psychoanalysis is art).

4. Hope: My dog near me when I wake up in the morning.

5. Hope: Anne Carson’s playfully stating something and immediately undermining it, because life is too serious a business to be encapsulated by platitudes. Ex:

6. As long as psychiatry
- Is rooted in power imbalance
- Is predicated on patients’ inability to judge for themselves what they want/need
- Is financed by pharmaceutical companies and regularly uses pharma-controlled (mis)information, to the point that APA’s conferences are sponsored by pharmaceutical companies (!)
- Is coercive and regularly uses law enforcement, in a unholy alliance of medicine and police/judicial authority, to wit:
- involuntary hospitalization in psychiatric units (coercion breeds abuse, invariably)
- involuntary drugging inside those facilities (even when drugging is oral, patients have to demonstrate they have taken the drug or be punished)
- use of punishments/rewards (“privileges”) in such facilities
- the patients cannot leave of their own volition, and when they leave they might have to abide by physician-dictated guidelines (stealthy parole)
- forced outpatient treatment, including
- forced ECT and forced use of antipsychotic medication, which is court mandated and enforced by police (court hearings are nominally democratic but the voice of the patient is invariably overruled by the voice of the physician
- forced attendance of day hospital (see above re: psych hospital’s overt and non-overt abuse of patients’ human rights)
- The police are deployed to people who express mental distress and are deemed “a danger to themselves,” often with intense traumatization and brutality.
- The phrase “danger to themselves” is a meaningless and authoritarian construct used solely to give some people power to dismiss and abuse some other people. It is often coupled, with or without reason, with “danger to others.”
it is an oppressive system and it must be resisted.