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psychoanalysis

Disappointment

1. I started this as a way to keep in touch with my analyst.

2. I resumed this as a way to keep in touch with my new analyst.

3. Write is what I do.

4. I want to post book reviews here.

5. My analyst stopped reading my book reviews so I stopped sending them to her.

6. I don’t think she knows the role books play in my life.

7. This is not about her not reading my reviews. This is about her not knowing what books mean to me.

8. Here’s on thing: without books I wouldn’t have made it through childhood.

9. Without books I wouldn’t have made it through life.

10. I will post book reviews here. This is how I learn, by reading and thinking. This is how I keep alive.

11. I’ll send them to her and she is welcome not to read them.

12. I will review here the books I read.

13. My book reviews were really meant for her but when she stopped reading them they stopped being for her.

14. Is life being able to bear disappointments? I think it is. I wish I were able to find the joy though. Is there someone life gives you beside what it takes away?

15. Painting Tomasa Martin, Ref: 1369 BOOKS IN BALANCE, detail.