Day seven

24. (What if) I had conversion therapy as a kid and I almost died from it.

25. (What if) I am so fucking angry cuz of it.

26. (What if) I had more conversion therapy in the psych hospital and I almost died from it.

27. The Miseducation of Cameron Post by Desiree Akhavan.

28. But in the hospital you have no rights even thought there’s a Patient’s Rights sign on the wall that you read and read with incredulity cuz not one of these rights is being given to you and the sign is a mockery and a travesty right under your nose and there is nothing you can do about it.

29. So this is when I start feeling really bad about myself, that I’m a bad person, when I think of all those who hurt me cuz I was nothing and they could do whatever they wanted with me and the only explanation for that is that I was (and still am) a very, very bad person.